Art can be therapy, and it can also cause distress. Lately, I’ve been creating a lot of work that I’ve been unhappy with because it’s been overworked in a style that’s not even my own. I’m trying to impress the teacher and the “invisible client” ... but I’m not impressing myself or creating anything that’s “me”. I need to find my own style before I can start creating pieces that I’ll like and that people will like.
The fact is, I like working loose, not completely realistic, yet not abstract. I like interesting, vibrant, dull, and monochromatic color schemes, penwork, lots of messy lines… and I love figures/ people - that aren’t completely realistic. From now on... I’m going to try to create things in school that are MY style... whatever that is. I know I’m not the only artist trying to find his or her unique style... we all deal with this inner struggle. It’s quite a pain. You go through this melodramatic artist in a crisis phase where you begin to doubt your own work and wonder if you should really be in art school. I would consider this my style... and this made me happy. I think the solution is pretty simple….
Anyways, this is based off of my watercolor still life of Mona, an armless manikin.